Shell Within Shell.

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I AM PAPER SERIES ©Reylia Slaby 2016

 

 

Today I was again caught in a whirlwind. A cruel, blustery tempest. These past few days have been full of me chasing after myself, but then running away from it as well. I fidget all day, carrying this anxious feeling within my chest, that threatens to choke me. It seems to say: When is it good enough? “It” being the art I produce, or rather, myself. I spend so much time fixated on it’s perfection in my mind, rather than production of the physical art itself. I am aware of this in myself, and it leaves me in even more suffering and guilt, stuck within a vicious circle. I tell myself that perhaps this is growth, but I find myself trapped within shell within shell, like a matryoshka doll.

Even as I type, I am fearful. Will even this be good enough? Where have I developed this abnormal fear of imperfection from? Perhaps it was something that naturally permeated and stained my being after being birthed and bred in the Japanese culture? A slow trickle of poison. Undetectable in small doses. Could that be the culprit?

Because when I was younger, I remember not fearing anything. I remember what it felt to be inspired by a piece of work rather than intimidated of or jealous of it.

Can I reclaim that sense of self? Hopefully I can find it again this year.

Always,

r.

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My desire of perfection.

hikarusmall

 

I’ve been overthinking lately. Unfortunately my mind has, in a way, been devouring itself. Starting one thing, stopping it, then starting anew at something else. Why must I let myself spiral into this? Part of me is thinking that perhaps in a way my stress and sadness fuels my joy in some way. That this discomfort is my body and mind’s way of communicating to me that there is something else out there. That I have yet to break out of my shell, my mold, this skin that I have to deal with…

I shake with fear of this. Thinking about having to extend, bend and expand myself leaves me with a nauseous feeling. It is me being a coward. Because while I don’t fear growth, I fear mistakes. And I know my desire of perfection will be my main hinderance. I make an attempt to shout to the universe, to tell me what is best, only to realize that I stand alone in a dark, wet cave, and the only sounds I hear are the echoes of my own voices against it’s rocky walls. Yes, voices; I have more than one.

I beg myself to just continue, to not get distracted by feelings that will be long-gone by next week. To just continue.

Always,

r.


the title is “Un”.

model:hikaru

My work for Adobe Photoshop! 25 under 25!

Reyliasmall

Hi everyone! I have some exciting news to share!
皆さんこんにちは! お知らせしたい嬉しいニュースがあります!

日本語訳を以下に記載しています。

This year marks Adobe Photoshop’s 25th anniversary, and in honor of it, the Adobe team has been searching the globe, looking for 25 artists under the age of 25 to create a piece in celebration of it. Among them are digital artists , photographers and even typographers. I’m super excited and honored to say that I’m one of the 25, and this is the piece I created for them.

To read more about adobes 25 Under 25 project, please check out the links below!
http://www.adobe.com/pro…/photoshop/25-year-anniversary.html
http://blogs.adobe.com/…/25-under-25-the-search-is-on-for-2…

A HUGE thank you to the Adobe team, for all their support and advice, and a big congratulations to the other 24 selected! You guys earned it!

I’m also taking over adobes Instagram for about two weeks! Would be so wonderful if you could follow, like, and comment on there! Link below!
https://instagram.com/photoshop/

Also thanks so much to all my incredible friends, family, and viewers for their support and encouragement! You truly are my rock. And a shout-out to the model, Dagny! You were so amazing on the shoot! I can never thank you enough.

Here’s to 25 years of creativity!

Always,

Reylia :))

今年はアドビフォトショップの25周年記念の年です。
その記念に、世界中のデジタルアーティスト、写真家、タイポグラファーの中から”25”というテーマのもと、お祝い記念の作品を創る25歳以下の25名が選出されました。

その25名の中に私も選ばれて、本日(10月5日)、17番目の作品として紹介されることを、本当に光栄に思います。

詳細は下記のリンクでご覧になれますので是非チェックしてみてください!
http://www.adobe.com/…/p…/photoshop/25-year-anniversary.html
http://blogs.adobe.com/…/25-under-25-the-search-is-on-for-2… (EN)

アドビの皆様からのサポート、アドバイスに感謝しています。
そして、他の選出された24名のメンバーにもお祝いの意を表します。

また、本日より10月15日まで、私の他の作品もアドビのインスタグラムに掲載されることになりましたので、是非ご覧になって頂き、コメントを頂けたら嬉しいです。
https://instagram.com/photoshop/

これまで応援して下さった友達や家族、そして応援してくれている全ての方々に本当に感謝しています。このような大きなチャンスを掴めたのは皆様のおかげだと思っています。

そして、この作品のモデルであるダグニー、本当にありがとう!写真の中のあなたはとても素敵でした。

25周年記念を祝して!

Always,

Reylia

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